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Banana Nut Bread and the Living Section. Trash is light. It's okay, you're not retarded. [10 May 2005|07:27pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

So I spent the night with Sheila last night and all day today helped her move out and in again. Atlanta is amazing. And the apartment she's staying in over the summer is perfect. It was insanely hard work, but so worth it- just cause I got to spend it all with Sheila. Afterwards we ate at Saigon Cafe (Tealicious closed!!) for some much needed and much deserved food and bubble tea. I'm exhausted now, but it feels so good to reach the end of the day and realize how much you actually accomplished.

countdown to Bright Eyes: 21 days!

I am so so happy right now. Something about home is just so right. I belong here. And now that I'm back for the whole summer I can actually see people and hang out like I used to. It's hard- much harder than people realize- to spend quality time on rushed visits over weekends between schoolwork, long drives, and an entirely different setting.

Saturday is gonna be an amazing graduation party in Athens- anyone wanna come with? I promise you will not be disappointed. Seriously. Plus I didn't have to lie to my mom to get to go. She know's exactly where I'll be and she knows we are gonna get trashed. Her response: "What can I do- I'm sure you've been to worse by now. Don't drink and drive."

Summer is gonna rock!!

(shoot for the moon)

yawn [08 May 2005|02:07am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

So school's out. I fucked up pretty bad in world civ because I was stupid stupid stupid. It was kinda a slap in the face though and I kinda needed it, so I'm vowing not to do anymore stupid stupid stupid things again. It just sucks because that C is the only grade posted so far and its killing me to think about how unbelievably stupid I was. Live & Learn? Let's hope so.

I've done a lot of slighty less stupid things this year, but I wouldn't trade them for anything. Now that I've done as many stupid things as anyone is allowed for one lifetime, I can grow up and be the mature responsible adult that the world wants me to be. Or actually I'll probably do a lot more stupid things in my lifetime, but that won't be one of them.

Anyways I am excited and determined to grow up this summer. And excited to prove to my parents that I can take care of myself. I'll not spend my money, and I'll not waste time. I'll work hard and I'll appreciate my family.

Goals for this summer: open a savings account and fill it with at least $1,000. stop cursing. learn to be less intimidated by adults and authority figures. get rid of unneccessary items in my room. show appreciation towards my parents. learn to use macromedia flash.

Things I am excited about this summer: nc beach for a week with family/extended family. visits to see daniel in florida. shopping with brit for our apartment. being with my girls again. being with sheila and rose. visits to mville peoples. not to mention whatever else comes up in between. at any rate, im gonna be busy busy busy. yay!

So far so good. Left Daniel's today. :( miss him already. got home and went to mcdonalds with kyle and tonight i saw rose and sheila and i went to austin's and watched superstar. and whoa its already 2:42 am. i best get some sleep so i can wake up for church in the mornin! gnight!

(4 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

Hey Amanda, where'd you find these crazy boys this time? [30 Apr 2005|11:41pm]
[ mood | happy ]

I am so so sad that this year is ending. I LOVE it here. And I just had the greatest time ever last Thursday. I just wish I didn't have to leave all these great people for a summer job and 3 months under parental constraints. Next semester is going to KiCk AsS! This year has had many many moments that kicked ass, but there will be ten times more next year. I can't wait.

Will & Matt are awesome. And Angela is awesome. And I learned how not to live in college this year, so now I can fix it and live like I should live in college for the next 3 years. It's of course about balance. I guess balance just comes easier for some, but for me it can be hard. I tend to dedicate myself to extremes.

Wednesday and Thursday were good too. Daniel and I ate out with his mom and they gave me presents. We spent the night at his house and I only had one class the next day. Oh yeah and Allyson came with us too. She's fun. Fun to talk to and listen to and drive around with.

Finals are this week. I have a paper, a project, two tests, and one exemption.

(shoot for the moon)

The years have been short, but the days were long. [22 Apr 2005|02:48pm]
[ mood | happy! ]

Last week was weird.  Fights are weird.  Cigarettes are bad.  But police aren't so bad.  Josh and Daniel, first place winners of the halo 1 tournament became the worst place losers of the halo 2 tournament.  Ryan had a party saturday a la facebook invitations.  It was super fun.  We  ate out a lot with money we didn't have.  Last week was decent.

This week was amazing.  There were many definate moments of stress, but in between it was almost too easy to recooperate because the sun was the brightest I've seen it all year and the leaves on the trees were a shade of green that you will only find in nature- almost like a different color entirely.  There was always a breeze and it didn't smell like brandford pears anymore and everywhere you looked, things seemed so alive.  The curving pathways and swirly mulch designs,  flowers in every color, scattered lamp posts, and people created an intense feeling of awe.  Almost every girl wore skirts all week, and the boys were always playing frisbee or football in the courtyards.  Main campus was just exceptionally beautiful.  Yesterday there was a high school concert band playing and you could hear it almost anywhere on campus.  That must be at least little like what its like on game days at bigger colleges.

Tuesday they blocked off a road and had ramps and bmx stunts all day before the tour de georgia.  By 2:00 the streets were packed.  It reminded me of the parade downtown with Brooke last year (sorta).  Bailey, Dee, and I skipped class so we could see the race cause lance armstrong was there.  I ended up staying outside all day long, but it was so so fun.  I got a sunburn.  Walked around downtown.  Talked to everyone and anyone.  Bought iced coffee.  Swatted at bees.  And afterwards Sarah and I layed out at the pool.

I won a raffle because I filled out a survey about sodexho.  I won a kick ass mp3 player.  It is cool as shit.  And my picture gets to be in the paper.

Thursday my word civ teacher flipped the fuck out because a girl sneezed.  At first we thought he was joking because it was the way he always talks- he has a really dry jokes.  When we realized he wasn't letting up and was actually angry, everyone in the class's jaw was dropped.  He made the girl cry.  It was too insane for words.  He threatened the entire class's grades because no one would back him up.  We were all stunned into silence.  He said she had distracted the class just to get attention and said that a student almost "soiled himself because of her sneeze."  It didn't even make sense.  He tried to cancel class but no one would leave. The two people that spoke up were accused of challenging his authority despite their exceptional respect and poise in handling the situation.  Basically half the class reported him to either the history department or student affairs for verbal abuse to this girl and to the class (really you would not believe some of the stuff he was saying.)  If it weren't for the fact that most students respect his harsh teaching style and requested that he not get fired, he probably would.

Today has been okay.  Woke up around 11.  Got a few birthday calls which made me happy.  And it was sunny up until a few minutes ago.  And Daniel says he's taking me to Macon tonight.  And I get free coffee at Blackbird.  And I'm coming home tomorrow morning.

(shoot for the moon)

Roller skates [14 Apr 2005|09:43pm]
[ mood | blah ]

**For some reason, I've been missing my girls like CRAZY this week. Maybe it's cause I started writing senior letters and its got me thinking about how amazing they are and how much I love them. Anyways its like everytime I go to a good party or have a good day, I'm always like geeze, I wish they could have been here to experience this with me. I really really hope this summer can be as good as summers used to be.

All I want to say to all my friends who are gonna be graduating soon is just to prepare for the most intense and incredibly fun time of your life. College is amazing. Even class isn't that bad. And if old friendships seem to drift apart, just remember that everything has a season- you know, that sort of thing. And I cannot begin to describe how thankful you will be for the time you get to spend with one another once you don't get to do it everyday.**

And now I'm off to watch the boys play halo until everyone gets here so we can have the hour of power. Geeze its nearly 10, I'm ready to party already!!!

(1 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

We would rule the bug world. [05 Apr 2005|08:58pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Holy crap. I am SO tired. Time goes by SO FAST once the sun goes down. We didn't go to sleep Sunday night at all. They say I ruined it by stating so, but it was pretty cool- kinda like a sleepover only with boys. I <3 josh and daniel. I am very very sleepy right now though.

I've been eating out and missing class way to much. Tomorrow, however, I am going to all my classes, including psychology, cause we heard the lecture was gonna be about sex.

(2 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

[01 Apr 2005|12:47am]
[ mood | tired ]

I think I have reached an all time high stress point.  I just feel like there is too much bad in the world and any effort of mine towards keeping it away from me and the people I love is worthless.  I can't believe mitch hedburg died.  I never ever thought the death of a celebrity would effect me at all, and it did.  A LOT.  Maybe it's just because of circumstances right now and all that.  I am afraid.

Also, school is unbelievably time consuming right now.  I have too much work and too little time to begin with, and now on top of that I have a job to deal with and a heart to repair.  And as difficult as life is already, throwing a drained soul and a tired body into the mix just makes it ten times harder.  I would give anything for security, love, and appreciation right now.

I don't want to go backwards, just forwards.  I am so stuck in the ugliest middle right now.  In high school, I thought I knew everything about life.  I knew how to handle tough stuff and how to take advantage of my youth.  But really, I didn't know jack shit.  All my experiences were watered down and as a result, my views were made unnaturally naive. Oh, but I thought they were so incredibly extreme at the time.  And my tiny tears were mere mists compared to the downpours I've experienced this year.  But I was so effing happy.

And now I have to learn to live all over again.  And I just want to fastforward to a time when I am loved and at home and content.  I don't care if that's skipping 4 or 5 years, or my entire life, so long as I somehow reach that point.  I suppose there are good times in between; I just wish they weren't fewer or further.

(2 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

I would be better at wearing hats. [26 Mar 2005|11:26am]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Before I begin this post, I just wanna say that the reason I am listening to this angry angry song is because I just want to scream this at people sometimes.  Especially at people who think they know anything about me when really they know nothing.  Judgements suck.  I love this song.

Aaaaahhhhhhh!!!!  My mom says she doesn't know who she's more aggravated at: Me or him.  She turned off my cell phone and later took it from me so I couldn't call.  I have it back now, but I'm NOT GONNA CALL!  And I'm not gonna cry today either cause I can't.  I'll just walk around like a zombie with my mom wherever she takes me cause I'm not allowed to be alone.

She asked me what I wanted for my birthday last night, and for the first time ever, I really didn't want anything.  Nothing.  I am so sick of everything material.  I want a savings account for my birthday, mom.  Just put in 50 bucks so I can start now saving for the house that I will live alone in 3 years from now.  I have this urge to just go sell all of my stuff.  My books, my clothes, shoes, purses, jewelry, my sewing machine, my stuffed animals, my plates, my cds.  I would spare only a few items: Sloppy Firsts, favorite jeans, a tank top, maybe brand new and bright eyes, and a pair of flops I guess.

I have these dreams now.  Ones where like all I do is work.  I work and work and I succeed.  I have 2 or 3 jobs at a time.  I make lots of money and I don't buy anything.  I just make my house payments and put the rest in savings.  I'm obsessed with saving.  And I think about all these things I wanted to do before.  Trips I wanted to take.  But I don't want to anymore.  Because without someone with me, what's the point?

But I'm not the person everyone keeps seeing me as right now.  I haven't been myself, not fully, since about october.  Maybe I won't be at all this year, but I'll have all summer to try and regain happiness and next year I can go back to school and it will be so totally different from this year.  I'll still get to live with the best roommate ever, only in a better place and I'll be better prepared.  And Bailey and Tori will be right next door. :) I can't wait.

Anyways-random, but here is something happy.  i owe this journal something happy and light.  it's just something that I found in one of my mom's old magazines and I really really like it because I feel this way about certain candies too.  Black licorice and dark chocolate in particular:

Sweets to stay away from: (Candies that, believe it or not, this writer would never buy- and why.)

Velamints: Try eating an entire pack in one sitting.  You will never, ever do it again.

Hard Candies: I like to believe the inventor of hard candies said, "Let's produce a candy for people to give away."  Hard candies are for banks, real estate agencies, anywhere you want to offer candy but don't want people to be greedy.  Put out Hershy's Hugs; they'll last a day.  Line your lobby with Lemon Drops and you'll refill once a month.  (Exceptions: butterscotches and root-beer barrels.)

Black Licorice: People either are or aren't; I'm not.  But I think eating it is very classy.

Dark Chocolate: Again, a sophisticated choice.  If I were are dark-chocolate eater, my personality would be completely different.  I would be better at wearing hats.  I would be able to tie a cherry stem in a knot with my tongue.  I would not find self-depricating humor funny, just puzzling.

Anything crunchy: You know: Nestle Crunch, Krackel, Kit Kat, Whatchamacalit.  Cruch brings too much air with it.  I'm not going to argue with the crunch market, but I'm not buying.

Mary Janes: The bane of pinatas.  Mary Janes are simply too much of a challenge for my teeth.

Redundant candy bars: Oh Henry! and Pay Day must have loyal followers, but if I'm going to have nuts in my candy (which is a big if), I'm going to get a Snickers.

(shoot for the moon)

[25 Mar 2005|04:16pm]
I don't know why I'm updating. I am so fucking pathetic right now. God, I would give anything just to be happy again. Maybe everyone just has a certain number of happy minutes in their lives and I've already used all mine up. But maybe if I have enough so sad I want to die minutes, then I'll eventually run out of them too and at least end up somewhere in between. Somewhere outside of feelings and love and pain.

I tried to go running at the park today. It was probably only like 2 miles, but I thought it would help. It didn't. I passed a lot of people on the path. Normally I would have looked up and smiled or something just to be friendly, but I couldn't. I didn't want anyone to see my eyes. I didn't want to put in the effort of a look that says "hello." I don't want to make new friends.

I went to a party thursday night, and it was fun. it always is. i like people. its just im not close enough to anyone to really feel like its where I belong yet. I don't like drugs and I don't really like drinking much anymore either. I have never liked being around a lot of people at once, and especially not people i don't trust.

I'm so scared. And I don't know what to do because I don't know what the outcome's supposed to be. I have no idea where I'm headed or why and there are no signs pointing me anywhere. I'm still stuck on autopilot and heading straight for him. But I have to stop. I have to go away.

(4 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

This entry is FAKE. [08 Mar 2005|05:15pm]
Today was really great.
I got out of bed because daniel woke me up with kisses.

I feel sad, because Sarah and Britney are complete bitches. They told everyone I have an STD, just because I slept with both of their boyfriends on Saturday night.

I'm so stoned. Last night I had to go to the softball game in the rain. I want to tell the world to get fucked. I am updating this journal for the first time in ages, because I've been in prison.

Today, I got a digital camera! Yes! Here's ten thousand photographs of my cat.
I want to say thanks to Babybob556 for making the background and icons for my journal. Thanks hon, ur super special!

I went to the doctor yesterday, and he said I have bipolar disorder, and should stop smoking drugs.
You should all do this quiz! It's amazingly accurate. You just put in your name and birthday, and it will tell you who you're sexually compatible with.

I hope this doesn't post as soon as i click the button. that might be embarrassing.
That's enough for now. But I'll leave you with this thought - sharing your life with strangers on the internet is the cheapest form of therapy available. Leave a comment and tell me I'm beautiful.

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(shoot for the moon)

[05 Mar 2005|03:22pm]
This weekend has been so WEIRD. The one person who was supposed to visit didn't, but like a gazillion other people did. Nothing turned out the way it was supposed to, but I ended up back in Warner Robins per usual. Daniel's been working all day with his dad, so I have been with his mom. We took the car to change the oil and had lunch at Subway. Now I'm just doin homework and stuff.

I have 24 beers in my room and nothing to do with them. Chances are, they'll stay there until long past spring break.

At the ballet Thursday night, Brit's teacher invited us to her "russian drinking party." She had a flier and everything. Since when did teachers get trashed with there students? Who knows, but this is hella tight.

My classes are good, so that's happy. 4 A's and 1 B on my midterm grades. Damn straight, I've been working my ass off this semester. :)

Spring Break is in ONE WEEK!

(3 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

Pccckkkuwww. [03 Mar 2005|05:00pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Our school has facebook now!!! EEeeee! I am lame. But then so is every other person at this school because we are all going mad crazy over it and its sad.

Today has been good. Happy. I like school. I like hard classes. I love writing and I am so happy that I know what I want to do. I'm lucky. I love Daniel. Shhh. I love Brittney and Clay and all my friends. I love having things to look forward to. I am even learning to love uncertainty.

Spring Break is so close. I don't have plans yet, but they are being formulated and its going to kickass no matter what. Because I said so.

Today is Thursday. Best night of the week. Psych isn't important enough to bother going to, which means I have no more classes until Monday. :)

My hair is getting longer and I like it. All day I have dreamt of a cruise this summer with Brooklyn Mundy and she doesn't know it yet but I am gonna make it happen because we deserve it and she is my best friend and I miss her.

Last night I went to a play with Brit and it was SO GREAT. It was called the vagina monologues. and tonight we are going to see a russia ballet. yayayayee.

(1 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

:) [23 Feb 2005|12:46pm]
[ mood | beachy ]

I am going to be FINE. Right now I just need to get my life sorted out so my mind can relax and I can be happy again. I think the only reason I'm not happy isn't because I miss Daniel, its just because I can't stop thinking about stuff. I went running yesterday and it was AWESOME. I haven't felt that good in a while. It was just really calming and good and I showered and felt so clean and happy.

I liked how Jody put it yesterday when he said "Call me crazy, but sometimes I just wanna be SOBER." That's how I felt yesterday. It's how I still feel. I much prefer myself without the influence of drugs, alcohol, nicotine or love. Yes, love is intoxicating.

I don't think I would have been right with Daniel either though, ya know? I really shouldn't be with him and I know that. It wasn't healthy at all. With him, I stopped taking care of myself, like I forgot to do things I would normally do like paint my nails. The little stuff. Or pick out cute outfits and do my hair right. I didn't ever really do anything with my time except be his.

I'm not saying I regret it. I don't. I KNOW I am learning from this. And while its still hard most times, I am still going to be friends with him. Maybe not as close as I'd like, and maybe still not as important to him as he is to me, but I LIKE being around him, especially by ourselves, and not because he is a boy, but because that's how I do it with friends. My best friends are the ones I spend time alone with. You get to know people in a completely different way, on a different level and you see things that just don't come out when you're in a big group.

Plus, I like his friends too, and I like hanging out with them. I still think most people are genuinely good. Their hearts are at least. People are all different and everyone knows that what's right for one person isn't always right for another. And that's what makes life so interesting. There is very little absolute truth. No one's perfect. And even Daniel has got good in him. He does.

I appreciate that so many people have tried to help me with this. But mostly I appreciate the people who just listened. I need people, but I think more than anything I need myself, and recently I've been relying only on other people and not at all on myself. So to my friends and most especially my friends here in mville- keep being my friend. i dont expect you guys to give me anymore sympathy because I don't need it anymore and I don't really think I deserve it either. I have appreciated it, but I feel like I am pushing myself further away from you all when I let you look out for me so much. You are going to hate me eventually if my relationship with daniel is still effecting our friendships. I dont want it to. So forget about him and I promise not to bring him up or let him effect me in regards to you.

No one here knows me as anything apart from him, but that has to change. So this is me begining to be just Amanda all by myself.

(3 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

You can make a plan, carve it into stone, like a feather fallin, it is still unknown. [19 Feb 2005|07:48pm]
[ mood | hot ]

Today has been good. My heart still aches and my stomach is doing flips, but I've done everything I can to get my mind off it today. I haven't been this straight up girly since last school year.

My mom took me to get my nails done, and they are perfect. I saw brooke and mrs. glubka at the place we went. it was weird. i kept having to remind myself that its been two years, and that makes a difference when you are just a kid. brooke's older, and i cant talk to her like shes 7, because now shes 9.

oh and for lunch today i ate at applebees with kevin and his friend richard. that was cool cause they were funny and joked about things and definitely made me feel better in a way that only kevin could. I feel special cause of all his friends here, he chose me to keep in touch with.

I also went shopping with mom. I got a new purse and some hair dye. i think ill do that tonight. and also hang out with heather. i hope. church tomorrow and then its back to mville. wish me luck and if you live here too, please call me so that i wont be tempted to go to the apt when im bored.

(shoot for the moon)

For all the happy times to come. [15 Feb 2005|04:21pm]
[ mood | good ]

I hope you all had a good valentine's day. i did. before class, daniel came home and he gave me a little black & pink notebook with a note written on the inside from him. it was perfect. after class, we rode around in tiffany's little red s2000 with the windows down. we bought a chicken, bread, and cherry garcia ice cream and ate it at the apt. in the dark on his bed while we listened to snow patrol. we tried to drink wine with it, but it was icky, so we used beer and two shots instead. We rented Ray, but never got around to watching it. some people came over and we hung out and eventually just fell asleep.

Classes were good today. english got out early, had lunch with daniel, studied in the library, took a world civ test, and now im back at the apt. We'll go to dinner later i guess, and tonight some people are comin over to drink again. I doubt I'll participate, but it should be fun to watch people and talk and stuff.

Thanks rose and sheila for the best day all week on sunday. ya'll are priceless.

(3 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

And if it makes you less sad, we'll start talking again- (it does. thank you) [11 Feb 2005|02:54pm]
[ mood | restless ]

I'm alright right now. More than alright even. I keep going from feeling completely liberated and happy just being me again to being completely sad and missing what was. I'm about to go home right now. I can't wait to see my friends. Maybe after this weekend, things will be easier again. Erg I have tonsatonsatons of homework to do. See? I'm already getting my mind off it. And Mom's gonna take me to that new resturaunt, California Dreamin. And I get to see TWO friends who i havent had for a while, but they are my friends again now. That is just way way happy. And Todd is back. :) And we have a kitty. :) And I'm on my way!

Edit: I stopped by the library to make this edit: But I just went over to say bye and to bring him some stuff and I said something about not having to deal with the messy apt anymore and it sounded all final and stuff and i didn't mean it and he jumped back and was angry and hurt and swears we're getting back together. But now he thinks that I'm gonna fuck it up. But I won't. I swear I won't. I wouldn't even if we weren't ever getting back together. I don't ever want any other boy but you. So here we go again- starting over.

(4 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

love [08 Feb 2005|09:12pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

 

(4 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

Scars [08 Feb 2005|01:14pm]
[ mood | destroyed ]

Josh and I agreed that there is nothing worth knowing in this world that anyone can tell you with words. Experience will show you the only truths. And it fucking sucks.

I am scared to death right now. But then maybe this is better than the alternative. Or maybe its worse. I don't know. I'll pretend its better this way and I shouldn't be scared because I can handle this. I could get loans. I could get a job in a year and live like that. Alone like that. The only people in my life would be the ones I am 100% sure are real. There are so few people that I believe in right now.

I lost my liscence at the club on Thursday. That sucked. I can't wait to come home this weekend. I need my parents right now. And not becuase they are my parents, but because they are not evil and everyone else is.

I love the learning part of college. I love my classes. They are thought provoking and insightful. And they give me purpose. I would rather be in class all day long and finish college in a year and know everything and miss out on the social part because it ruins you. How sad is that?

God, where are you?

(1 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

Germs [07 Feb 2005|12:00pm]
[ mood | Germs ]

"My very best friend is my little shaggy dog
Chewin on my tennis shoes and runnin through the halls
He's kind of like my shadow cause he's everywhere I go
He sleeps in my bed but my mommy doesn't know

I hide him in my pocket cause he's very very small
Germs Germs my invisible dog

He runs like the wind and he knows some funny tricks
He doesn't like carrots and spinach makes him sick
He loves cotton candy and purple lemonade
Oreo cookies and yellow gatorade

I hide him in my pocket cause he's very very small
Germs Germs my invisible dog

We ride our pony to castles far away
Chasing funny dinosaurs and dragons on the way
We often go exploring where the river runs and bends
With cowboy hats and wooden rafts like Huckleberry Finn

I hide him in my pocket cause he's very very small
Germs Germs my invisible dog

I take him to church but nobody every sees
The little shaggy spotted dog sittin on my knee
He's learning bible verses and he loves the happy songs
But he often falls asleep when the sermon is too long

I hide him in my pocket cause he's very very small
Germs Germs my invisible dog."

(1 spoke too soon |shoot for the moon)

I recommend walking around naked in your living room. [27 Jan 2005|12:47am]
[ mood | awake ]

Like last week or something we went to this chinese buffet thing and at the end they gave us hella-bunches of fortune cookies. my first one said "Stop searching forever. Happiness is just next to you." daniel of course was next to me. anyway i just found the fortune and wondered why i didnt write that when it happened. it also has this thing at the bottom below the lucky numbers that says Learn Chinese: and then a word and its symbols and pronunciation. this one said "teeth" Ya-chi. i thought it was funny. like the way they teach you how to say weird things like "yeti" for "abominable snowman" in spanish class, but they forget to teach you basic necessary words like "grass".

other happy things=basketball games and ive attended two so far and i really really like em. better than high school games. cause the people in the stands don't act so friggin stupid and people arent crushed together and your never have to feel like left out for not sitting with the right people or chanting the right chants because in college, there aren't "right people" and no one expects you to be so social- they expect you to watch the game- the way i like it and its supposed to be. its all very comfortable.

also happy is last wednesday night cause allyson and lisa are cool and fun and really it was just very good. and we sang the beatles a lot that night. and drank killians and coors light. and it wasnt like party fun, it was like genuine hang out fun with only the people you like. tomorrow night should be fun too cause we are going downtown.

im wide awake and its 1 am. i gotta get tired so i can get good sleep tonight. i want to make tomorrow a happy day. wow, ya know what? i have never said to myself- "tomorrow im going to make a happy day" since i started college. not once. i think i did that at least like once a week in high school. almost everytime it worked too. i had super days. YaY!

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